Okay....

Okay, here I am, I feel like im back in primary school and facing up for confession time... I had a blow out.. come on dont be surprised, i was about due. but i realise that its how i deal with it and bounce back - thats is the real test.

I ate enormous portion sizes almost every week, which included huge servings of home made lasagne on both friday and saturday night, even a couple of bits of garlic bread which I lied and said I wouldnt buy. I had a few wines friday night and then picked a bit more at the left overs, and then saturday night i did the same thing. I had my huge tea, then went out, drank way too much, i cant even say i had no inhibitions, because I knew damn well what I was doing as i snacked on the mini sausage rolls and spring rolls at 4am... home to bed. Sunday - bacon and egg mcmuffin and OJ at 12 for breaky... brunch.. whatever. then lunch went for a few hours, started with meat and salad, then i went back for some more and some more and grazed most of the day.. did you think i was full after this. of course i was. what did we then order and eat for tea - a family size pizza. I had 4 and 3/4 of the big greasy things and the whole time knew I shouldnt have, and knew I had to weigh in the next morning.

I felt shit all day and then yesterday much the same. I think I caught some kind of cold - nearly everyone at the party had it! and i was in bed all of yesterday.. So yes not a good start to my 6 weeks of big weekends hey...

SO - I gained what I lost last week - so i give back all your big pats on the back for how well i did the week before, because it was all back on yesterday morning when I creeped on the scales.

I realise that we all have these things happen, and falling off the wagon is all apart of it, i think because I hadnt done it in such a long time, its even worse this time, and knowing that we have such a busy lifestyle for the next few months makes things seem a bit harder. but as I said in my last post, or a few ago - this is life for us, so if i cant maintain, or lose at the moment then im not quite there yet!

So onwards and downwards, i dont want any more massive weight losses if i cant maintain them the week after, i realise im only back to where i was a week and a bit ago, and i can cope with that. the world isnt over, like i thought it was yesterday! ive just taken a step backwards and know i can take three more forward now.

so back to the track - exercise and tracking wise, and i hope to stay the same or lose a little this week if i get myself back on track in time. saturday will be even bigger, but its sunday that i find is my killer, so im going to put some before and after pics up around the house sunday, even just on the fridge, so i can face it every time i feel like being a pig!

Anyway, thank you for letting me confess, we're all human, we all make mistakes, thats life im afraid, i hope you can see the same if you've had 'one of those weekends' yourself, and if not, keep up the great work, i love hearing how you all go, make sure you fill me in!

Pap smear for me tomorrow night - what a fun week!!!! :( Oh well, could be worse!

take care xx

p.s thanks for the poem jo - your a nutter, and thats why i love ya xx