im starting to sense a trend.. i say im back on board and then have a few little slips again before i realise - right there's a little more too it than just committing to be back on board - you have to actually do it!! so I am. doing something about it that is. and with ttom close to finishing up, so are the negative thoughts, self loathing talk and just feeling useless and disgusting. because do you know what - im neither of the above and its about time i stopped acting like it!!
So that was my little sermen to myself this morning, and after emailing sherrie I realised that its time to get serious. - again i know, but the more times we have these revelations the more it is etched in us for life. and thats what we are on this journey for, to make life changes not just temporary ones to shift a few kilos here and there. And each time I fall off and get back on I know im a bit more closer to that life change. I will never be perfect and ill never be able to eat and gorge what i want and not gain weight eventually, but do you know what, im glad - because gorging and not looking after yourself doesn't feel good at all!!
So ive rang the hire company today and they are bringing back my treadmill and taking back the crosstrainer - its time to start running again! last summer was when i started last time and I loved it, the feeling you get after a work out is amazing, better than anything ive ever tasted thats for sure!! so im keen to get back into that, as well as some riding and swimming - which requires no equipment or costs, mum has a pool and i have a bike. and a friend has just given me her 12 week triathlon training program so im going to work out my own one so that im incorporating all of the above and make it a bit of a summer work out challenge.
i'd also love to get back into a step class and im walking once or twice a week with sarah now. so i am doing something about it. im also going to go back to - BASICS, always the trick to getting back on track, and im going to write it down! planning works without fail - considering you follow and track it, so im going back to the beginning - not next 'monday' but right now. so join me if you want to feel as fabulous as i will for all the social events we have coming up to christmas!!
Today
B - toast and orange juice 5
l - salad roll/toastie 6
s - fruit, saltanas and vegiemite cruskets 2
d - risotto 7
20 points and nothing extra!
Exercise - AND I WILL DO THIS TONIGHT I PROMISE (i was very lazy with tennis last night, played but just wasn't in it)
- 50 minute walk with chappy after work, then if my tready has arrived, 20 minutes running then my weights and exercise reps. and if it hasn't arrived ill do a 30 minute oz aerobics class that ive been taping. so good start I think...
Anyway I better make a start and getting my head back in work, ive been in no mans land this week so far. so i better get back to it, have a good week and ill be in touch daily to let you know how im going - back on the track - which seems as hard as kokoda sometimes.. tehe...
xx
Wednesday, 5 December 2007
Tuesday, 4 December 2007
blow out
just a quick post this morning to let you know about my blow out last night. ttom blowout for sure. chocolate ball, cherry ripe, dairy milk chocolate bar all before tea, oh and some other little pepperdew things that have fetta in them, for some reason i had the most massive craving for these, they are soaked in oil too. then i soaked my tea in way too much gravy as well! so as you can imagine i felt pretty flat and shitty last night. i didnt do any exercise and couldnt sleep when i went to bed. so NOT a great start to the week.... oh well ive aknowledge the slip up and im planning on doing something about it. now that weigh in is friday im keen to not let last nights chocolate binge do any damage at weigh in friday.
so back to the drawing board. i want to feel good for the events we have on this weekend and the only way that happens is when i eat right and stick to my exercise plan so thats the plan. I hope your nights were better than mine. i can't wait for a couple of days when im not feeling so bloated and crampy! tennis tonight and I might throw a walk in there as well to make up for last night. see how i go for time. have a good day and ill talk to you soon. thanks for listening,....
so back to the drawing board. i want to feel good for the events we have on this weekend and the only way that happens is when i eat right and stick to my exercise plan so thats the plan. I hope your nights were better than mine. i can't wait for a couple of days when im not feeling so bloated and crampy! tennis tonight and I might throw a walk in there as well to make up for last night. see how i go for time. have a good day and ill talk to you soon. thanks for listening,....
Monday, 3 December 2007
Quiet weekend - with out any sleep still
So much for a weekend of sleep ins - the stupid dog next door barked at our bedroom end of the house ALL morning, and im talking 6am starts both days. I work with the neighbour and have told her once about its all day crying and barking but I noticed their cars were home when I got up to yell SHUT UP on sunday morning so im going to say something else today. Otherwise im going to ring the council, - imagine if we had had a big night! 6am starts on a sunday are illegal!
Anyway that's my whinge, other than that we got up the christmas tree - lights might have to be this week (out side) and I made a massive dint in my christmas shopping (and bank account) on saturday. Mum and I went over to shep for the day and got heaps done - and sore feet in the process. I walked/weights and exercises friday night, saturday and then again yesterday so big ticks for that. I ate GREAT too until a bit too much for tea last night and ww choc pudding and icecream for sweets which wasn't too bad considering.
TTOM so a few extra cravings. bloated and sore as hell today too. I find that if I ever 'play through' (skip a period and stay on the pill) the next period is ten times worse! so as sorry for myself as I was this morning I got on the scales just to check and I hadn't gained since fridays weigh in so I was happy with that. im looking forward to weighing in friday (which I may change to the way im going) and maybe being very close back to 75 or there abouts when i do.
This weekend we have my xmas party with work friday night - boat cruise then out for tea in echuca, big night and all paid for so we will be having plenty to drink im sure! then saturday night we have to back up for another big one, our footy club xmas party - boat cruise again! always a big one. so saturday and sundays main goal is to stay on track, organise some 'points friendly' hangover cures and try and get a bit of exercise in there as well!!
My fruit juices with fat free sorbet have been a popular weekend treat at the moment! i love them, all they are are pineapple, mango, banana, watermelon, some mixed berries and a few scoops of fat free sorbet - its better than the juice shops!! so i may have to make a few this weekend!
this weeks exercise plan-
monday - 50 min walk, weights and exercises and 20 minutes on cross trainer
tues - 30-40 minute walk and night tennis
wed - walk and ride, weights and exercises
thurs - 50 minute walk, weights and exercises, 20 minutes cross trainer
friday - morning walk 30 minutes
and saturday and sunday - play it by ear!!
Anyway better get started, have a good day, make smart choices, keep in the move and ill talk to you soon xx
Anyway that's my whinge, other than that we got up the christmas tree - lights might have to be this week (out side) and I made a massive dint in my christmas shopping (and bank account) on saturday. Mum and I went over to shep for the day and got heaps done - and sore feet in the process. I walked/weights and exercises friday night, saturday and then again yesterday so big ticks for that. I ate GREAT too until a bit too much for tea last night and ww choc pudding and icecream for sweets which wasn't too bad considering.
TTOM so a few extra cravings. bloated and sore as hell today too. I find that if I ever 'play through' (skip a period and stay on the pill) the next period is ten times worse! so as sorry for myself as I was this morning I got on the scales just to check and I hadn't gained since fridays weigh in so I was happy with that. im looking forward to weighing in friday (which I may change to the way im going) and maybe being very close back to 75 or there abouts when i do.
This weekend we have my xmas party with work friday night - boat cruise then out for tea in echuca, big night and all paid for so we will be having plenty to drink im sure! then saturday night we have to back up for another big one, our footy club xmas party - boat cruise again! always a big one. so saturday and sundays main goal is to stay on track, organise some 'points friendly' hangover cures and try and get a bit of exercise in there as well!!
My fruit juices with fat free sorbet have been a popular weekend treat at the moment! i love them, all they are are pineapple, mango, banana, watermelon, some mixed berries and a few scoops of fat free sorbet - its better than the juice shops!! so i may have to make a few this weekend!
this weeks exercise plan-
monday - 50 min walk, weights and exercises and 20 minutes on cross trainer
tues - 30-40 minute walk and night tennis
wed - walk and ride, weights and exercises
thurs - 50 minute walk, weights and exercises, 20 minutes cross trainer
friday - morning walk 30 minutes
and saturday and sunday - play it by ear!!
Anyway better get started, have a good day, make smart choices, keep in the move and ill talk to you soon xx
Friday, 30 November 2007
WOW - before and after take 2
I just found this picture on our work directory, an old work photo... beware the image your about to see may be disturbing...!
it definitely makes me realise how far ive come....
the bottom one looks distorted - it definitely is not however!
I put the before - last to try not to scare people when they first go into my blog... hehe....
One week down already! 2 kilos down as well!
hi all, thanks for all the lovely comments. we were very relaxed, very happy and so so excited to be spending the rest of our lives together and celebrating that with all our closest friends. I think we've watched the video 10 times now!! its so great to relive it and very special to keep. Professional photos will still be a few weeks away yet, I just hope we have them back before christmas. great ideas for family gifts too - since we get to keep all our negatives and enlarge/reprint whatever we like!
So my first four and a half days to get back on track have gone unbelievably well!! I weighed myself this morning and I was already 2 kilos down on the 5 that I gained over the wedding/honeymoon month off. So I was stoked, I knew it would be a good result though, I already feel heaps better and nearly back to normal. 3 kilos and it will all be just a memory - good memory of course!!
I also had another little revelation last night, which I decided to share with chappy at 11.30! I am glad that I have had this experience, Im glad that I was overweight and I think everything happens for a reason. If I weren't were I was I wouldn't be where I am now. I think that people that have great metabolisms aren't necessarily healthy. those really skinny people that put anything into their mouths and never gain weight. i wouldn't swop spots - honestly! because this has been an educational experience as well as a weight loss journey, and I have learnt the benefits of good eating and exercise and when and if I do fall I know how to get myself up again now - i know what to do - and it works!!
Anyway there's my little revelation! im sure with no drinking and sensible eating this weekend ill even nock a little bit more off come monday - its ttom next week so just to stay at 76.1 will suit me fine too! 2 kilos in 4 days is huge!!
I can't believe its been a month since our wedding this weekend - how bloody quick do the days and weeks go!! and then sunday is december! ill have to put up the tree!! and 13 days till my birthday - forget all about that with everything else that has been going on! we have some busy and big weekends coming up in the december month - like most people so ill be concerntrating on getting back under 75 and maintaining that through to the new year. ww goal! then in the new year my goal will be my personal goal of 70, tonned and healthy!
So there you go! I better get back to work, im finally caught up which is good. a yummy stirfry for tea tonight then pitta pizza tomorrow night. and beef and salad sunday. ive been making the yummiest home made foccacias for lunch lately, using some different combinations, today is shaved salami, light sundried tomatoes, pesto and thinly sliced light cheese. toasted! Yum.
Exercise for the weekend will be a big hour walk tomorrow followed by 20 minutes on the cross trainer and weights and exercises, sunday will be a more relaxed day - supposed to be day off but ill feel better with a light walk in the morning before it gets too hot! next weekend we have two huge nights so ill be putting in the effort during the week so that I can enjoy a drink friday and saturday! im so glad to be back - not just physically - but mentally as well. enough rambling from me, have a good day guys and thanks again for the lovely comments on our wedding photos!
So my first four and a half days to get back on track have gone unbelievably well!! I weighed myself this morning and I was already 2 kilos down on the 5 that I gained over the wedding/honeymoon month off. So I was stoked, I knew it would be a good result though, I already feel heaps better and nearly back to normal. 3 kilos and it will all be just a memory - good memory of course!!
I also had another little revelation last night, which I decided to share with chappy at 11.30! I am glad that I have had this experience, Im glad that I was overweight and I think everything happens for a reason. If I weren't were I was I wouldn't be where I am now. I think that people that have great metabolisms aren't necessarily healthy. those really skinny people that put anything into their mouths and never gain weight. i wouldn't swop spots - honestly! because this has been an educational experience as well as a weight loss journey, and I have learnt the benefits of good eating and exercise and when and if I do fall I know how to get myself up again now - i know what to do - and it works!!
Anyway there's my little revelation! im sure with no drinking and sensible eating this weekend ill even nock a little bit more off come monday - its ttom next week so just to stay at 76.1 will suit me fine too! 2 kilos in 4 days is huge!!
I can't believe its been a month since our wedding this weekend - how bloody quick do the days and weeks go!! and then sunday is december! ill have to put up the tree!! and 13 days till my birthday - forget all about that with everything else that has been going on! we have some busy and big weekends coming up in the december month - like most people so ill be concerntrating on getting back under 75 and maintaining that through to the new year. ww goal! then in the new year my goal will be my personal goal of 70, tonned and healthy!
So there you go! I better get back to work, im finally caught up which is good. a yummy stirfry for tea tonight then pitta pizza tomorrow night. and beef and salad sunday. ive been making the yummiest home made foccacias for lunch lately, using some different combinations, today is shaved salami, light sundried tomatoes, pesto and thinly sliced light cheese. toasted! Yum.
Exercise for the weekend will be a big hour walk tomorrow followed by 20 minutes on the cross trainer and weights and exercises, sunday will be a more relaxed day - supposed to be day off but ill feel better with a light walk in the morning before it gets too hot! next weekend we have two huge nights so ill be putting in the effort during the week so that I can enjoy a drink friday and saturday! im so glad to be back - not just physically - but mentally as well. enough rambling from me, have a good day guys and thanks again for the lovely comments on our wedding photos!
Monday, 26 November 2007
and some more from the wedding
me and my gorgeous husband
my gorgeous girls emma, sarah, kate and ashlea
the bridal party shot at the gardens
a couple more of mr and mrs xx
got hold of a few more goodies. enjoy! you'll be pictured out now!honeymoon time - cas you better be happy with a full update now!!
chappy and i at whitehaven beach - windy!!
the chapmans - didnt realise we had the same initials till this!! haha
friends we met and G.Os (staff at lindeman)
our room - big bed!
chappy at the pool bar
the eigth hole - what a view
main pool overlooking the beach
chappy and i at hamilton
chappys one and only water for the trip
on our arrival - pic from the boat
the island! heaven!!
chappy on day one - we were on to the midoris!
the main poolsome more
i now pronounce you mr and mrs chapman!!
reception - me and ez, good friend from work! too many midoris!!
my sister, maid of honour - ash
leaving the husband behind already!!
me and a school friend
my gorgeous mum
me and dad - tears are starting
mr and mrs chap
the stunning bridesmaids, my most special girls in the world xx
signing my life away!!!better ones coming too + honeymoon xx
before and after with wedding
feeling like I need a lift after the honeymoon gain so thought id post a pic along with one of the befores - when my gorgeous husband popped the question. will keep the posts and photos coming - im well overdue!!
im back!!
AHOY!! Im back!! Had the best few weeks of our life, dampened on the weekend by the death of a friend from school in a horrible car accident but apart from that we had the best time. not close with the guy anymore but we were good friends at school so it was very sad all the same.
so before i go on and on ill post the pictures you've been waiting for. i can't wait for the professional ones these turned out good enough so they are going to be amazing im sure.
the honeymoon was sensational, already planning on going back. we had the best time. bad news was we gained 5 kilos each over the 3 weeks, good news is im positive as hell and getting back into a routine today. even got some detox viles to get the copious amounts of alcohol out of my system! it was all buffet for breakfast lunch and tea, and the yummiest foods - seriously, so we ate way too much for every drink and i think i drank over a hundred midori splices over the week we were there! didnt get too much exercise in with the rain half the time but we made some great friends who we have kept in touch with and we had so much fun which is all that matters. it was great to have the week and a half off when we got back too, to catch up on things, watch our wedding video a few times and go through all the photos. still can't wipe the smile off my dile from how happy the whole thing was. wasn't stressed a bit until we turned in the drive then it hit me. then i balled my eyes out all the way down the isle - bryan adams is enough as it is!! let alone all our friends and family there for us! then i seen chappy waiting down the front!! then we had the best time having photos with our best friends in between ceremony and reception and the drinks flowed on at the wedding! it was such a fun night, everyone was blind and had a ball. we snorkelled at the great barrier reef on the honeymoon as well and we went to whitehaven for a day! it was so gorgeous. ill have to post those pictures as well. what a day for the internet to be slow too. ill see how far i get. heaps to catch up on here, but you'll be glad to hear im back in blog land so ill keep in touch and the pictures coming. have a great day and week and ill talk to you soon. ive got a back under goal challenge before christmas - which i agree is the toughest time of all to do it but i think it will be achievable with most of it being grog and food from the last few weeks.
so start weight today 78.1 goal 75. here i go!
enjoy the pics. talk soon xx grrr they are only tiny pics. ill keep trying...
Monday, 5 November 2007
our wedding..
Tuesday, 30 October 2007
wedding and weekend...
okay as you can see i am still alive, just very very busy!!! Here are some pics from the wedding on the weekend. it was lovely. I thought it was very impersonal though. im looking forward to ours this weekend - how wierd does that sound! this weekend!!! last day of work tomorrow so it will be my last day to post, i have been so flat out its pushing it getting on now, but had to put something on before we go away!! the bottom one was at our house friday night. had friends for tea and we ended up having a huge one, then saturday night we ended up getting a taxi home from echuca ($75 later) at 5am... So HUGE WEEKEND!!! very seedy yesterday and bloated and gross. but back on track and feeling better after a good sleep last night, mums birthday sunday too so busy busy busy. this week is flying and its only going to go quicker, when works finished tomorrow arvo i think ill start to get really excited. its such a special week so want to soak up every minute!! i hope your all well and i look forward to saying goodbye tomorrow and then posting wedding photos next week. take care xx
Monday, 22 October 2007
HENS DAY!!
howdy, here are some snaps from the weekend. what a weekend. I had the best day. so much fun! the races were awesome, then we went for tea and more drinks and got home around 12. i woke up okay considering yesterday but so tired, still tired today didnt get much sleep last night. chappy had a ball at his as well, we both just had the best days which was great. the boys dressed him up in a lycra netball dress that he wore all day and he carried stacey, his blow up policeofficer doll around all day too! he was so messy when he got home but he was fine all day until the got the bottle of sambuca onto him on the bus on the way home. he zonked. can't wait to get the photos back from his too. i gave the groomsmen a disposable camera so we can make up an album from hens and bucks - through to honeymoon. and guess what! after all that drinking and then pizza and pasta for tea last night...............
I lost 1.4 kilos! another good loss. i was sitting at 72.8 this morning so im pretty much there with my goal for 72 by wedding. the next two weeks will probably see me under that the way im going. its starting to get so so exciting, now its just the wedding. booked in all my facials/hot rock massage/tan, nails and stuff like that today. that will be a lovely couple of days off before! So 8 more days including today - left of work! Chappy is home recovering today! i was so jealous when i had to go to work! but so much to get done so it wasn't really an option!!
I had to book in for my next cervical cancer shot this arvo, so needle time at 4.30, after fainting last time chappy is going to take me so i don't have to drive home! im so brave!! then walk then dress fitting!! if i get home from that in time ill go over and watch chappy play basketball - bet he feels like that tonight! otherwise ill have a quiet one in and clean up some more of the house! there are ants all over the laundry from chappys alcohol soaked dress!
anyway guys, just thought id post the pics, hope you like. i had a ball. and i had a great reward this morning when i weighed in. snuck a peak friday as well and i was in the 71s!
take care, talk soon xx
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