P.S

I got home last night and my day just kept getting better, (chappy bought me flowers yesterday - just because he loved me, which is so not something he would do!!...) and then he had done the washing, the dishers, the rubbish the floors and the rest of the housework too! and just coz! what a husband he's going to make!! im a very lucky woman, he's a gem x

NO MORE ICECREAM!!!!

What is with that, you work so hard at learning new good habbits, and then new bad ones creap up with out you even noticing. I realised last night that im eating way too much icrecream. sweets has never been a problem for me, i very rarely ate sweets (probably becasue I used to eat for a man + one and there was no room for sweets!!) but lately ive been naughty. I even bought a boysenberry (not low fat) one last week and i realised last night that its three quarters gone!! so enoughs enough, i even said to chappy last night, thats it, no more nightly sweets or i wont fit into this bloody wedding dress, which I know i will, but if i eat icecream from now until then I know I wont!! So once a week as a treat, maybe on a monday night if i have a good loss!! and it will be ww or light and creamy icecream none of this fatty crap. and small portions too, maybe with fruit salad or something good.

So that is my revelation today!!

Chappy and I went for a good fast walk last night, he wanted to be home to watch a show so it picked the pace up a bit, then we went to mums for parms and vegies. they were yum she has just quit smoking and is paranoid about putting on weight so she said she didnt use anything unhealthy to make it all so that worked fine for us! she's a dag though, she isnt putting on weight, and even if she does a few kilos is better than a few less years of life! ive always been at her for her smoking it wasnt until I tried so many times to lose weight that i realised habbits are bloody hard to kick, so ill have to be very encouraging and help her even with her eating if she wants that is! she already asks me lots of things because she knows how well ive done! one thing that i laughed at last night was she likes a wine with tea but thought it was so bad for her that she topped most of her glass with orange juice.. and the sugary kind that is, i explained to her that having the one glass of wine is better than having three glasses of a smigen of wine and a heap of sugary orange juice!! it was news to her, she said, isnt orange juice good for you?? i said yeh the pure orange juice is not ducats or any of those kinds of things, in moderation of course but not as a subsitute! its just amazing how much we learn from ww really!

well enough ramble! we are supposed to be training tonight but once again its teeming down out there, the farmers will be very happy with the rain this week! i hope we get to do something though, and then ww meal for tea when we get home! the weekend is too busy to think about at the moment, so ill stick with thursday for now! I hope your all having good weeks and ill talk to you soon, take a scroll down if you havent been in for a few days because ive been posting very regularly and dont want you to miss the pics from the 80s night or the week just gone!

take care xx

Mid week slump

Hi guys, bit of a slump at the hump of the week but ill be right, back on track, bit too much tea last night - thats how yummy it was (fettecini calabarese) and then unnecessary fatty icecream afterwards, then had a small piece of chocolate cake this morning i worked it out to be only about 2 or three points, it wasnt mud and it was seriously tiny, I had one of the new ww satay wraps for lunch - they are yum, and nice on a cold day too, try them! then had my two squares of cadbury this afternoon. scheduled of course, feeling very crampy and bloated today so it was very much enjoyed.

Tonight is tea at mum and dads, she's making her homemade parm and vegies, a lot healthier than pub parmies though - don't stress!! and im going to rug up to go for a walk after work, I had last night off to study some more and the exam this morning went really well! Its not too often you can say that .....

OH MY GOD! Chappy just bought me flowers, a big bunch of bright pink carnations into work. I went through all the - what have you done, what do you want, why did you do this, i cuoldnt stop laughing or smiling and he said just becaue he loved me!! i have never even got flowers for valentines day! for a very long time anyway!! Im still in shock!! what a romatic!

The girls think he would have done it because I went well in my exam, but he just said - just because I love you, you were tired last night and I havent seen you as much this week... im a very lucky woman! I know!!

Anyway have a good night and ill talk to you tomorrow! the week is half way through again!

TUESDAY + RAIN!!

Thats right, its raining! It has been for most of the day here! I let zara in at lunch and left her in front of the heater, couldnt send her back out in that!! Day one went well and i went to bed at 11 feeling a tad hungry which is a good sign, especially when both tea and lunch were quite filling. back to the smaller plates though which is such a good weight loss tool! a third of the normal size! Also went for a big walk after work and then did my weights, situps and lunge exercises before cooking tea and then getting stuck into the homework, I cant wait to relax tomorrow night, mums even making me tea!

Chappy didnt get home from working at our friends place till after 10 last night and tonight will be even later, hes a good boy working extra long so our friends can finally move into their new house. He will be nackered by the end of the week though, it worked out well when i needed the house quiet from tellys to study though, and its too cold in the study at the moment! so i cant complain and i get a big warm cuddle when he finally does get into bed too!

Fettecini Calabarese for tea tonight, home made, one of my faves. will be careful not to have too much but the calabareses is the only real points grabber.. the rest is pasta or vegies including crushed tomotes, yum! I had a yummy toastie for lunch as well and cereal for breaky this morning. I also had banana for morning tea. TTOM today so ive got my (counted) freddo for this arvo, i even broke it in half and left some at home so i can have a nibble when i get home as well, to tide me over until tea time, im hoping that i can still get a walk in but if the rain sticks around i wont complain either. more study and rest as well.

I hope you liked the updated pics below, we had such a fun night! and I still cant get over the before photo compared to now, i cant wait till i get to goal and i can post my before - at my absolute biggest, its a real shocker.. and i can finally post my AFTER!! Look out!

My goal is still to get to goal sunday week, seems so close, but with ttom finishing this week ill lose that bloat and i only have 1.6 kilos to down now!! it will take discipline over the weekend but nothing this little black duck hasnt done before!

Anyway I better get some work done - ive done NOTHING most of today, well it doesnt feel like it, time for a nurofen, the cramps are kicking in, enjoy the rain if your having any, talk soon xxox

Okay before and progress report time!

My Monday post is down below, but i thought id put up a new before and progress report to inspire myself this week and anyone else that needs it!!

The first photo is from nov 05 and the second one is from saturday night. Even though im still in black, i can definitely tell the difference. and how real is my smile in the second one.....

Monday-itis

Morning all, I hope you all had a lovely weekend. Mine was good, big and bad but good!! I couldnt believe my eyes this morning when I weighed in and had only gone up 300grams from last week, considering this is what I had engulfed in over the week/weekend -

Chocolate every day last week just two bits a day but still, morning teas there was no fruit, biscuits or even sausage rolls one day, icecream nearly every night - and not even the low fat stuff, normal until saturday night i had a huge bowl of seafood risotto which wasnt too bad, but then birthday mudcake to follow and then our home delivery pizza when we got back to kates house, with some garlic bread and coke as well. drinking wasnt too bad, i had two udls at the footy then one bottle of wine with tea, after that i only probably had another two glasses of wine and that did me for the night!! lots of water after that which helped sunday morning. still felt slugish all day though, started it off not hungry after our 4am pig out.. but still had a big mac and cheeseburger at macdonalds for brunch at 12... then went to mums got a platter of cheeses cabana and dips to feel disgusting but still eat in the late arvo. and then she had made a big lasagne for tea.. i was stuffed, literally.. but still had that bad icecream to wash things down.

I even said to chappy last night I was certain that I could have gained anything up to 3 or 4 kilos this week after not counting all week but trying to get health back on track and then the splurges on the weekend, not to mention ttom this week!!! so 300grams was definitely a shock, but a lesson learnt too. As I said to chappy, whatever I do gain its there for a reason, id be more worried if i kept gaining and was doing all the right things.. so i know what i did and i got off pretty lightly considering> it does mean that I have to pull my finger out this week and get myself back on track ww wise. I dont want what is normally a big post ttom loss turning into something worse if last week catches up on me so....

A few things for this week -

Plan, and track everything that goes into my mouth.

Chocolate only if my points allow this week for ttom.

No going over my points during the week - (sister in laws 30th saturday night)

Walk for 50 minutes mon, tues, wed. netball training thursday night, short walk friday and netball saturday. sunday rest - (engagement and 5th birthday party, no drinking)

Weights/situps/lunges work out monday, wednesday and friday.

2-3 litres of water daily, including weekends

Post daily

studying monday and tuesday nights - exam wednesday.

So I better go fill out my planner for the week, no excuses! I hope you all have a great week and ill be in touch. Ill post some pics from the weekend, then ill do my before and after with my best friends photo! have a great day xx

Chappy is being silly in this one, top kate, chappy, bottom me and emma (birthday girl!)

This one is katie, em, toni and me

Here's one of baby ashton from last week when we went for tea, love's his bath time!!

And this is me emma and kate 18 months ago and me emma and kate on saturday night.....

Friday is nearly gone aswell

Hi all, just a quick one today, busy finishing off BAS's being last day of lodgement. I cant believe its already four, ive been meaning to blog most of the day but kept getting busy. then I had a horrible phone call at lunch time from my friend. Her mum was rushed in to the hospital today and was told to pack her things, indefinitely. Its not looking good at all, very sad and hard, trudi was really upset. They are all at the hospital today, they think the cancer is actually in the brain, after being told, yes it is, no its not, and now yes it is again.

So its been a rough day, but my sadness is nothing in comparison to what they are going through so my thoughts are with all of them today. fingers crossed for some good news, but yeh as I said nothing is looking good.

Last night i blew my portion control this week out of the park, i scoffed myself on my nemisis - tacos. I just cant stop on those things, I nearly said no but chappy really wanted them and I had no will power last night and they smelt soo bloody good. So i went to bed on a full stomach. Oh yesterday was a bit of a blow out all together though, I had mini sausage rolls and quarter sandwhiches at arvo tea after my big lunch and also some chocolate in there.. so not the best, trained and pulled up fine though, so im going to play saturday and see how I go. Looking forward to the weekend, but that news has put a bit of a dampner on the whole thing, ill let you know if I hear anything else, pray for them!

I hope you all have a good weekend, make smart choices and tell your family and friends you love them, because you never know whats around the corner,. xx

Thursday 24th May

Thursday again, and Friday isnt far away again.. So busy with work at the moment is making the weeks go even quicker. Heading out for lunch today for hayley, my friend from works birthday, ordered the penne calabarese, its a DELICIOUS italian resturaunt!! so ill have a ww meal for tea tonight which will be a bit smaller after training. Had a few bits of snack chocolate that we won in our biggest morning tea competition! we had to decorate a paper cup the best, and hayley and i made hot air balloons - very creative!! so we got a block of snack to share - we had one piece yesterday each, two pieces today and might even have another couple tomorrow, its good control for me though who would normally hoe down ten at a time. and with ttom next week a few counted pieces of chocolate cant do too much damage. Speaking of damage, my goal this week is to maintain last weeks loss! anything else is a bonus, like any other weekend we have a big night saturday but its the choices that i make then and sunday that will depict how i go at weigh in.. so ill have to keep telling myself that and ill be right. Anyway I hope your all having a good day, im quite the regular little poster now arent i - keeps me honest though, if you dont hear from me in a few days im either not well or hiding away because ive miss behaved.... beacuse busy doesnt stop me checking in with you all!! I talk to much in every day life so im bound to ramble on here! xx

HUMP DAY

Howdy, how is everyone's weeks going? apart from a mucusy cough im feeling ten times better than earlier in the week, even got out for a walk last night, zara loved me for it too! had a naughty icecream sweets though, not the low fat one either.. so smacks for that. and treated myself to a rumball for morning tea this morning - biggest morning tea here at work so that wasnt too bad. and its ttom next week so i usually include a bit of chocolate this week. my main thing is getting my health back on track this week and making my portion sizes smaller again so thats my focus. going well too, going to bed hungry which is good. my ring starts to get really loose when im lower on the scales too and its practically falling off today so im hoping i can sustain a pretty good week, include some exercise in there and not go off the rails at the weekend.

heading to yea saturday for netball and footy, chappys out with injury and im a maybe... will see how i go at training tomorrow night. then on to melbourne for one of my best friend emmas 24th birthday, we are staying at my other best friend kates house so it will be so good to catch up with both of them and be able to have a drink too, havent in so long. but it still wont be a messy night which is good. cant wait. as long as im still healthy at the end of the week!!

1.3 from goal again, its getting a bit exciting and daunting, i can definitely see myself making my personal goal of 72-73 now too. My friends in melbourne havent seen me for a long time so it will be nice to show off the new me on the weekend, ive got a new outfit and all so that will be pretty special! not that they loved me any differently being overweight that is.

Bridesmaids are getting their measurements and everything taken friday night too, so their dresses can start getting made, thats exciting!! a few more months and i go back down to get mine fitted again and any alterations made. I still cant believe that the size i ordered was a 12 and that was five kilos ago... so ill be getting a size 12 altered down.. sureal or what!

I think I have to keep up the positives and realisation of how far ive come, to keep me on track, i have a few slip ups or have a gain and get a bit complacent and think im a failure, and thats the difference between success and failure, how we get over things, i think.

We have had a few things added to our social calander in july now.. so junes full every weekend, - big things too, 30ths, engagements, winery walk about stuff like that. and then july has two weekends gone already as well. So ive scheduled out the other two as KEEP FREE - (ten points for trying) so ill see what happens there... anything big we should know about by now so we should be able to keep it free, then august is giong to have to be quiet because september is footy and netty finals, and the local and afl grandfinal days, then my sisters 21st, dads 50th and hens night and stuff in october.. its honestly making me tired thinking about it all, as im sure it is reading about it... so bring on quiet august - i say!!!

Lucky i decided to get to goal through out all these massive weekends as well, otherwise id be waiting till august to get some quiet time. its all about choices though, so i have to make the right ones over all these big weeeknds and ill be right, because really thats what life is all about and we are always going to have stuff on, and thats fun so i cant complain!! as long as im taking care of myself thats the main thing.. dont want to keep getting sick and run into the ground, so 'yes dad i am looking after myself...'!

Tea at sarahs tonight, i might take some more pics of little ashton, he's so big now! im doing a few hours study and then we will head out for a roast - yum! so ill be getting lots of cuddles, he came in before with sarah and played in my office for a bit! he's only 11 weeks but such an alert little thing. ill also get lots more photos this weekend with my friends in melbourne so ill be sure to post them next week! i guess thats one good thing for you to look forward to over the next few busy weeks - lots of photos!!!! i have over 200 on my camera at the moment so i really have to go get them developed, i need a new album every time i do theres that many!!

Anyway enough rambling, hope ive passed some time for you anyway - time to go get a roll in a minute, making a yummy salad roll for lunch, looking forward to it. have a good day everyone and ill be in touch, take care, make good choices and love life - we only get one shot, love yourself too, or no one else will be able to! xx

80's night/quick one

This will have to be a quick update, crook again yesterday so heaps to catch up on. fainted early monday morning (2.30am) so spent yesterday recovering in bed again, back on the mend though so ill see how i go this week. here are some photos from saturday night, it was very funny. chappy got best dressed (mr t) and the rest of us just looked ferral. only needed a few drinks myself after losing my appetitie and being on so many meds for my cold and back.. getting myself back on track this week though and i lost the 2 kilos i gained last week (when i weighed in yesterday) so im keen to maintain that this week and maybe nock a bit off it, ttom next week though so we will wait and see.. will go for a slow walk tonight if im up to it, try and get back into the swing of the exercise thing... here are some pics... try not to laugh too much...

Another Friday....

Hi everyone, first of all thank you chris and Caz, your comments really hit home with me today and made me realise i do just have to stop. gain perspective and have some me time. im bound to get sick and run down every now and then and a gain is not going to stop the world going around. I weighed in this morning (sneak peak) to see how much worse this week was, since its been pretty ordinary again and i was 1.7 down from last mondays big gain.. so go figure... seriously!

On the exercise front which has been pretty non existant this week.. is only going to get worse im afraid. Went to the chiro yesterday and boy have i done it good. I have sprained the illiou ligament (if that means anything to you) the ligament that joins the spine and the pelvis.. so very sore today after all his work yesterday to try and get it right. So no training last night and definitely no netball this week, nothing for a bit and i have to go back for some more on monday.. i was in tears while he manipulated it yesterday, very painful. cold and heat each night till monday which will hopefully help. Ive got some cream and tablets too. so no work tonight taking it very easy until advised otherwise. Ive also gotten a lot worse - flu wise, you ought to check out the bark on me. i was coughing all night, and hows this for love, chappy woke me up this morning with some cough medicine and a vicks vapour drops, it got me to sleep for an hour more at least. I told him this morning that that meant more than flowers. he begged me to stay in bed today, but we have a few deadlines today and im still catching up from having monday off so i had to come in. ill see how i go anyway. if i stay home in bed my back is just going to get stiff and irritate me! we have cancelled going to our friends for tea tonight though, i dont want to give them anything and need to get myself right. so quiet night, early to bed, going to get more medicine from the chemist in my break so i can kick this thing for the weekend.

I am really looking forward to the 80s night and have got our whole outfits worked out - ferral! so i really dont want to be sick still tomorrow or it will be no 80's night for me!!! we are staying out at our friends place and its supposed to be a huge night so ill have to play it by ear for now, and taking it very easy tomorrow with no netty. it just means i have to get my eating back on track and focus on that for a bit and getting myself well.

Sherrie flys to the UK today! look out! have fun gorgeous!! I just got a text - SHE GOT TO GOAL TODAY!!! she had 500grams to go and hadnt lost anything as of yesterday and weighed in this morning and she was 1kilo down! so she passed her goal weight and has lost over 30kilos! WELL DONE MATE - IM SO PROUD OF YOU - YOU ARE SUCH AN INSPIRATION. (her goal yonks ago was to get to goal before going back to the UK and she never thought she would ever get it, even as of yesterday!!, what a great story!!) She's actually made my day!!!!

Anyway I better get back to it, I hope you all have a great weekend, and thank you again for your support and kind comments. I dont know where id be with out yous! talk soon, take care x

Shit night, getting there today...

The title of this one says it all. Last night I had my infamous appt with the doctor.. it was alot worse than last time too, painful and bleeding (sorry too much information) but it wasnt good. Then training went for too long and my back was just aching, i could hardly stand when i got home, there is definitely something wrong there, i lay on the couch then went to bed for the night. Im booked in with the chiro this afternoon so ill let you know how i go, hopefully he doesnt hurt me too much. im also not over this head cold thing I have got going on. My throat is so sore, my head is throbbing with a headache and my muscles are aching, i dont want to go home to bed, because then my back gets stiff and aches and im flat out at the moment as it is. as much as exercise is lacking at the moment im going to give training a miss tonight to make sure i get myself better. And running around in the cold isnt going to do me any favours, or my back.. So not much better today, but im pushing through.

I got a big email of sherrie today which put a lot of things in perspective. I was really upset and feeling lousy last night and hadnt had those feelings for such a long time. which i think is why its hit me harder this time. I feel like im falling back into my old habbits, bigger portion sizes, laziness etc etc. But as she said, stop. okay - star taking making each good choice as it comes, dont worry about the rest, the weekend and everything else, just take one meal at a time one day at a time and make the right choices and ill be fine. I wish i could say im back on the wagon but im not yet, and i know not being well has contributed alot to this, but still no excuse really.

So im somewhere around the wheel part.. trying to grip myself back up again. one meal at a time, one day at a time and ill be right. My mini goal is to lose what i gained this week before sherrie gets back from overseas (3 weeks..)

I hope your all having MUCH better weeks, and your all not being as complacent as this person has been the last week or more... take care and ill talk to you soon xx

Tuesday or Wednesday! ??

It feels like a tuesday but its actually Wednesday already. Since I was away crook on monday the week is flying, it will be friday and the weekend again before I know it!!

I have just been working on our budget for the next two months, with saving every week for the wedding, personal loan and house payments, and then all the other bills coming in from every angle, its getting tight. it also doesnt help when socially we have something on every weekend. So i sat down again today and worked some things out. I think we will survive - just! as long as i stick to the wines and stuff in the cupboard at home and keep the credit card away as much as possible. no more shopping for me for a while either, which is convenient since i think im at least a month off goal now. Which is fine. my own fault after the big set back this weekend. (thanks for the ideas Jo, I might have to do something like that this weekend!)

I also was starting to get a bit complacent about my portion sizes so i went to the supermarket yesterday and stocked up on a variety of the ww/healthy choice/dolmio frozen dinners, which are yum! so ill have a few the next few nights to keep the portion sizes under control.

I also havent exercised since saturday - netball. my back has been really painful, have to go see someone, ive got a bubble thing beside my spine which is making my back ache, the sports trainer gave me a rub at footy on saturday and said i should be getting that checked so ill have to get onto that. anyway it rained last night so i couldnt do much, and sick on monday and sunday. So tonight we have a prac match at netball and tomorrow night is netball training again. Going to get up and go for a walk friday morning and then again either saturday or sunday (as well as netball saturday) so im slowly getting back on track.

Thanks for all your support and great advice, i admit i had a blow out, but im getting new tyres fitted today and they have plenty of tred so ill be able to grip on to something over the weekend!, im a wally arent I!!! Better get back to it, leaving at 4 today for the doctors- fun.. not! talk tomorrow :)

Have a good night guys xx

Okay....

Okay, here I am, I feel like im back in primary school and facing up for confession time... I had a blow out.. come on dont be surprised, i was about due. but i realise that its how i deal with it and bounce back - thats is the real test.

I ate enormous portion sizes almost every week, which included huge servings of home made lasagne on both friday and saturday night, even a couple of bits of garlic bread which I lied and said I wouldnt buy. I had a few wines friday night and then picked a bit more at the left overs, and then saturday night i did the same thing. I had my huge tea, then went out, drank way too much, i cant even say i had no inhibitions, because I knew damn well what I was doing as i snacked on the mini sausage rolls and spring rolls at 4am... home to bed. Sunday - bacon and egg mcmuffin and OJ at 12 for breaky... brunch.. whatever. then lunch went for a few hours, started with meat and salad, then i went back for some more and some more and grazed most of the day.. did you think i was full after this. of course i was. what did we then order and eat for tea - a family size pizza. I had 4 and 3/4 of the big greasy things and the whole time knew I shouldnt have, and knew I had to weigh in the next morning.

I felt shit all day and then yesterday much the same. I think I caught some kind of cold - nearly everyone at the party had it! and i was in bed all of yesterday.. So yes not a good start to my 6 weeks of big weekends hey...

SO - I gained what I lost last week - so i give back all your big pats on the back for how well i did the week before, because it was all back on yesterday morning when I creeped on the scales.

I realise that we all have these things happen, and falling off the wagon is all apart of it, i think because I hadnt done it in such a long time, its even worse this time, and knowing that we have such a busy lifestyle for the next few months makes things seem a bit harder. but as I said in my last post, or a few ago - this is life for us, so if i cant maintain, or lose at the moment then im not quite there yet!

So onwards and downwards, i dont want any more massive weight losses if i cant maintain them the week after, i realise im only back to where i was a week and a bit ago, and i can cope with that. the world isnt over, like i thought it was yesterday! ive just taken a step backwards and know i can take three more forward now.

so back to the track - exercise and tracking wise, and i hope to stay the same or lose a little this week if i get myself back on track in time. saturday will be even bigger, but its sunday that i find is my killer, so im going to put some before and after pics up around the house sunday, even just on the fridge, so i can face it every time i feel like being a pig!

Anyway, thank you for letting me confess, we're all human, we all make mistakes, thats life im afraid, i hope you can see the same if you've had 'one of those weekends' yourself, and if not, keep up the great work, i love hearing how you all go, make sure you fill me in!

Pap smear for me tomorrow night - what a fun week!!!! :( Oh well, could be worse!

take care xx

p.s thanks for the poem jo - your a nutter, and thats why i love ya xx

ITS FRIDAY.... AGAIN!!!

Okay now I think something is going on.. how the hell does it get to Friday this quickly every week... It never used to go this quick... or are we all just getting so much busier!!

Anyway, last night was productive. training was good, then we came home and I made tonights lasagne dinner and cleaned the house from top to bottom, i even cleaned out our bathroom cupboards which im sure you all know is a big job!! so im feeling like the house is up to date to take on the weekend which is good! tonight ill go straight home, get changed and go to work for a few hours, cleaning. then head home at 8 for tea and a few quiet drinks watching the footy with the friends coming over. One of chappy's mates, and I clean with his girlfriend so it works out well being on a Friday night.

Then the rest of the weekend. Im actually really looking forward to tomorrow night and then sunday at mums for mothers day!

On the wedding front - all happening, picked out the guys suits for the wedding this week, they are black with a faint pin stripe and white shirts and ties, very classy and they will each have a small white tulip pinned to them. the little boys will be gorgeous too!!

Also ordered our disposable wedding cameras to go on each table for those happy snaps through out the night and our favours - they are love heard lolly pops in our colour, tiffany blue (which is not far from this colour actually) they will have the name cards attached to them! I also ordered 120 little wedding bubbles which will have a little tiffany blue ribbon wrapped around each one to keep with the theme - and our little cousins will hand these out at the garden ceremony!

So getting there! its good to have ordered and paid for a few things as well! then its just the big expenses when it all gets a bit closer! starting to look at invites as well, i have a lady designing a few templates for me today if she sends them through i might post them here and get your input!

On the ww side of things.. having an okay week, as i said to sherrie this morning, while i dont feel like ive had a perfect ww week and been a bit slack tracking, when i do sit down and think about it, i havent gone over my points, ive been exercising every day and maybe had a few meals that are bigger than the normal portion size but nothing to smack my hands over.. the week is still young though.. but thats not a very good attitude is it! I have my drinks for saturday night and they are points friendly, ill have tea before we go so im full and not snacking and then sunday ill have to get out that friend of mine called discipline when im feeling hung over and crap! who knows i mightnt be too bad.

Big game of netball tomorrow then going to try and get a slow walk in sunday so im hoping to inch a little tiny bit off my 1.2 to goal and get there in the next few weeks! big weekends and all!

I hope your all having a good week, might update the blog a bit today, everyone at works going to footy in melbourne this afternoon! i had to say no.. too much else on this weekend and the rest! so i might have a bit of time up my sleave! have a great weekend guys, and happy mothers day to all the beautiful mums out there xx

Bottom end of the week already!

Oh my gosh the weeks are going quick!! and the weekends will go even quicker now too i think.. I realised today that we have HUGE weekends planned for the next 6 in a row, then one off and then our footy club ball! This weekend is big enough with tea friday night, 40th saturday night, and then mothers day sunday... next week 80s night at the footy club, then to melbourne the next one for best friends birthday. then my future sister in laws 30th, mystery bus trip and then the winery walk about - which is a wipe out!! and then an engagement party! so we are going to be wrecked - and broke! but thats been the theme of the year so far, at least there arent any more weddings for a while i guess!!

So lots on, and lots of reasons to get to goal and go shopping for some new outfits i guess! I bought a few things this week which im really happy with, two winter tops, just plain white and black ones with nice shoulders and then a warmer dressier top, some size 10 pinstripe pants and new boots!! I will have to have a look in melbourne for some other numbers! its nice wearing clothes that fit though and having something too!! the credit card isnt as happy about these things, but ive worked hard and deserve my new wardrobe!!

It also means its going to be a lot slower losing the last 1.2 kilos that i would have liked, but hey ill still get there, i might even surprise myself, i know ill be right if i make smart choices and work hard during the week and then not overindulge on the sundays afterwards!!

We went for our wednesday walk last night, it was zara's actual birthday too so we got her a massive big bone to mung on for the night! then we had tea and relaxed. at about 8.30 i made myself get off the couch do some skipping and weights and other pump exercises, i was burning my quads up, i even yelled out at one time, chappy wondered what i was doing, grunting and groaning from the back room! ouch!! then i did the house work and went to bed, slept well too! tonight its training then cooking a lasagne for tomorrow night, since i have to work after work, i wont be home till 8, and thats when they are coming over to watch the footy and have a feed. so ill get myself organised tonight instead. its a pain but so hard to catch up with everyone so the things youve got to do hey!!

Im looking forward to my marinated chicken fillet and salad on the bbq at mums on sunday too, good hang over food too! ill have a bacon and egg mcmuffin (ww homemade) to get my greasys in too, so im all set.. bit sad im preparing for a hangover, but im being realistic i guess!

Looking forward to our tough game of netty saturday too, ill let you know how i go next week! got to get stuck into the rest of my uni stuff next week have an exam in a few weeks! i know im busy arent i!! but i can cope with it all much better than the big lazy and lathargic Jenna used to!! and i know my limits!!

Nearly time for lunch, i looking forward to a big yummy salad roll today! hope your day is going well, love to hear from you, talk soon xx

p.s thank you for the comments on my last post. i really appreciate all of your friendship, and being able to inspire other people is something I never thought i would be guilty of! that means so much and i also never thought id have any one else out there reading my crazy thoughts so that was nice. As I said to chappy last night - after reading your comments, your all so right.. and my transformation physically is just a bonus in comparison to my transformation mentally. He couldnt agree more. have a great week everyone, xx

DAILY POST

Morning all,

I decided id try and post daily like I did last week to keep myself on top of things and accountable, being so close to goal!

Quick mention - well done to chris with her big loss this week - changing over to core! and alea getting yourself back on track, 4 months till your wedding thats exciting stuff! My ww superstar shez - well done on all your losses, your so close to goal now and you've helped me get so close as well, look forward to maintaining together! and speaking of maintaining - caz is the maintenance guru so plenty of good advice there!!

Last night was a good night, got home we were both stuffed but chappy and i took zara for the usual route - 6km walk, shes been so different since her operation, sooky and temperamental, im just about at my wits end.. wait till i have children, seriously!!

Then we came home, and had marinated lamb chops with vegies, im sticking with my small plate - which i think helped with my massive loss last week. and im not even noticing, im chocka block and its probably a 3rd less than I normally would put on a bigger plate. chappys plate is slightly smaller too which is a bit sneaky of me, but he hasnt complained! we were talking on our walk last night about how different we both eat now, every night id come home and make something HUGE - and RICH and it was like we were eating like kings every night. huge chicken parms with scollop potatoes (that and baked potatoes were our idea of vegies....) or huge bolognaise or carbonaras, no wonder i suffered from acid (reflux).... so its good we can look back like that now!

We were talking about that on the weekend too, when i first got serious about weight watchers in march 2006, it was when the biggest loser challenge was first on in australia, and one of the guys on that said he had changed three things since losing weight.. asthma, acid reflux, and snoring... and i suffered from all three as well and thought well right, if losing weight can change some things huge like that, im keen!

And i was only at the doctors last week and he commented how he hadnt seen me and asked how my asthma was. i said its almost non existant, i still take a preventitive daily but im even easing back on that now too!! so there are so many ways in which i have benifited. I think the most important of all is my happiness. thats the first thing mum and chappy both noticed, how much happier i was. and thats huge! I cant believe how depressed and miserable i was, id have a big crying episode every week and be a mess.

I constantly thought about ending things, which is so so horrible after seeing how far ive come now. I was seriously depressed. I think I had a lot of problems though, and ive only told very few people this, but suffering from bulimia through adolesence was something that i am happy to get out of alive too. I was very sick and skinny (never thought i was mind you) and it wasnt until I met chappy and he knew something was up, he said he wouldnt put up with that kind of crap and i guess i realised the damage i was doing and stopped. that was over 5 years ago now, and i guess im a lucky one, to be able to sort myself out like i have. it wasnt easy, and gaining copious amounts of weight after i stopped making myself sick, but still eating copious amounts of food, led to my weight problems in the 4 years afterwards. it wasnt until last year when i thought, hang on this is my life, im in control here, and enough is enough.. and look at how far ive come... I think the worst thing that came out of it was how sick my sister then got afterwards. not a good role model was i. she was sick for years and ended up in therapy for eating disorders and thats something i have to have on my concious, but she's okay now and we are better friends than we have ever been which is great.

So theres my little story, i know the people that read this are people i can trust so I dont have any problems sharing that. I hope someone out there reads it and can change their life like I have as well. and I also know that you;s know who i am today and thats a much better person than i was back then.

Anyway I better get back to it, another busy day with lots to do. tuesday is such a nothing day though isnt it! training tonight then im making a yummy pasta dish with evaporated milk and chicken mushys garlic and spinach - YUM!

Have a great day, thanks for listening, and ill talk to you's soon! xx

ENORMOUS EFFORTS PAID OFF!!

Hi all, ill get straight to it -

I LOST 2.1 KILOS THIS WEEK!!!!!

I had a sneak peak saturday morning because i felt very different and thought the hard work that week would have paid off for sure. and I was right. I was 2 kilos down on saturday and then lost another 100grams over the weekend.

IM NOW - 1.2KILOS AWAY FROM MY WW GOAL!!

I also passed my 30 kilo milestone by 1.2 kilos! so im feeling really good and proud this week!! I still cant believe how far ive come, but a few looks back at some pictures (the ones I actually let people take, there arent many) I can definitely see!

I also have to take back one of my pairs of jeans i bought last saturday... the size 14s were falling off on the weekend so i might as well swop one over for the 12s or 13s to get wear out of them. these numbers are foreign to me too!!!

had a wedding dream last night, forgot to organise EVERYTHING and was doing it all the day before, chappy said i woke him up sleep talking giving orders about napkins or something silly!!

All in all we had a lovely quiet weekend, worked friday night for a few hours then saturday footy and netty, got second best on with a massive win 87-20. Played out at GD too, my fitness is definitely showing more and more too. Then we came home saturday night, had a nice spa and then pitta pizza for tea. Yesterday we had a sleep in. yummy 97% fat free pancakes for brunch, a salad roll for late lunch and then ww peppered beef and ww chocolate icecream for tea. we went to the footy in the arvo to watch my dads team play and took my hung over sister who ate maccas in the car - gosh it smelt good. but it didnt smell as good as what getting on the scales this morning felt - so i was happy to refuse!!

I hope you all have a great week, i know I will!

Talk to you's soon xx

TGIF

I cant believe its Friday again! Thank god though! Im so hanging out for this weekend!! Today's gone quick but dragged all the same. Im so looking forward to our quiet weekend at home. Ill be so happy when I get home from work tonight (cleaning) but 2 or 3 hours goes pretty quick there so she'll be right!!

I just booked our honeymoon!!

We are flying out Wednesday after the wedding, Melbourne cup is tuesday so we usually do something fun for that and thats enough time to recover from the wedding and recovery day, so its worked out really well, we fly straight to hamilton island and then shute to Lindeman Island (club med) for seven nights. All meals, All drinks, even the cocktails and spirits - you name it, (all day eating and drinking available could be a bit of a problem) i might have to calculate that into my eating plan (roughly of course- im on my honeymoon so im not going to be pedantic about it - im glad it is just for a week for damage control now!!

So thats booked and half paid for.. it will hurt us for a bit now, money wise, im glad we arent doing anything this weekend. Next weekend wont be too bad, we have bought the present just need to pay for drinks and my wine rack is chockablock not having had to buy drinks at all the weddings we've had so that shouldnt be too expensive!

Just have so many bills at the moment - i shouldnt say at the moment - because as ive come to realise, thats life!!

Im really venting in todays post arent i!!

We had a great night last night with nixon (page boy, friends little four year old) that came and had a sleep over. he bought zara a birthday card with a 4 year old badge (its her 4th birthday next week) and some doggy treats, so she loved him!! not having to wear a girly badge on her colour all night though.. haha, no she was fine!! he is such a fun kid, we had a really good night, and he didnt wake till 7 this morning so that wasnt too bad, went for a walk when i did get up and then came home and got organised.

Had lunch with sarah today, and baby ashton, hes grown so much. my pasta dish (carbs for netty tomorrow) was so big, it was delicious though, and chockablock full of garlic too. yum. and i figured that was my pasta for the week and even though it was 2 or 3 over my points, im not going over all weekend and have over 20 bonus points so i enjoyed every mouthful!! Crumbed fish in a sandwhich with lettuce cheese and mayo for tea so ive swapped my lunch and teas around!! im making pitta pizza tomorrow night - another yum. looking forward to coming home from footy, jumping in my pjs and having tea and watching the footy in front of the heater! best thing about winter i wreckon!

Well ive wasted enough time, better do something before i go home. have a great weekend everyone and i look forward to reporting my good news from weigh in on monday! take care x

6 MONHTS TODAY!

Exactly six months until our wedding today! eeek! Im so excited... its still very sureal though!!! I cant wait, its the serious count down time now though... woo!!!

What a constructive night!! I stayed behind at work and almost finished my assignment, got so much more than I thought I would done! came home to a lovely tea (chappys a wizz, chicken mingnongs with mash and vegies) on my small plate too, he's a gem!

Then I decided to go for a walk, and 800m in i thought why dont i go for a run!! I ran the usual 2kms that I do down to the end of town and then thought why not go a bit further. i was sweating and i loved it! i put zara on the lead now (near houses now) and we ran all the way home, worked out to be about 5kms which is the furtherest i have run and i felt great!!

I got home and did the usual weights, sit ups, lunges and stuff and then jumped in the shower!

Jumped in my pjs and then did the rest of the housework and jumped into bed! i was very happy with everything i achieved last night and day 3 of my perfect ww week! yummy hunny crumpets for breaky this morning and im looking forward to my fruit and yoghurt for morning tea! im having a toasted tomatoe cheese and ham sandwhich for lunch today and ive got a ww meal out for tea after training tonight! i also have my freddo included in my points to treat myself this afternoon! i still cant believe how well im feeling and doing at ttom! its great!

Have a good day all, talk soon xx

before and progress body shots

oh my god, just flicking through my photos and found this shot from my friends 21st 18 months ago. and the second one is from the wedding two weeks ago! I dont even remember being that big, it helps catch my mind up to my body though. I hope these inspire you as well!

Hi there, how are you all? Tuesday today, TTOM so feeling very bloated and crampy this morning, just took some nurofen so hopefully that takes care of that. Pump last night was good, i started a bit lower on the weights so im able to walk this week, but as i get stronger ill gradually move up with the weights. went for a quick run around the park before hand and it felt good to run again after not doing much for a while when i was crook.

Training tonight and I have a ww meal out for tea, satay chicken with beans and rice, its quite yummy, bit of spice to it too, and its nice and easy for when we get home late from training. im changing some meals up this week, im having tomatoe soup for lunch today which im looking forward to, especially in this cooler weather! at home by the heater - great!

Ive got quite a bit of study to do tonight after training as well, then staying behind at work tomorrow night to work on an assignment, not sure if i told you this already but ive re enrolled for an extra subject each study period so that i get this degree out of the way a bit quicker, its not impossible but im going to be flat out, but hey now that ive achieved so much with my weight loss, i know for a fact that I can achieve anything i set my mind on!! and ive got lots more energy too, so losing weight has really helped in every area of my life!

I will be a qualified accountant by the end of next year which is perfect timing. the pay rise will be very welcome too!

anyway, bit of a boring post today! i spoke to emma - one of my best friends who lost her mother to a long battle with cancer a few years ago now, we had a big chat about whats the best thing I can do as a friend for trudi and her family during this hard time for them, and we both decided that the best thing i can do is let her know that im here, anytime, anywhere, and at the same time keep things as normal as possible for them all as well.

Have a great day everyone, ill write back soon, keeping accountable on here this week and another weekend off drinking so im hoping to reach my 30 kilo milestone this week (900g off!) Look out!

Take care guys xx