Getting there

Its been a rough couple of days but im getting there and can finally see some light.. since friday/saturday my ugly depression has been rearing its ugly head for no apparent reason and ive been very self loathing and not coping with lots of things going on.. financially we have had some troubles but we are coming out of that and at the end of the day i just cracked.. had a good cry to chappy and my mum last night and the good nights sleep did me a world of good.

Food wise I havent been too bad, back to one sandwhich at lunch as aposed to one and then halfa one when im making the other one.. if im still hungry i have celery sticks or sakatas and salsa, tomatoe are my favourite.. Today I had a corn on the cob as an entree to lunch it was sensational, dripped in sweet chilli sause! Its thursday so I have a few days to go till I weigh in on monday so im planning on pulling off another loss. exercise has been good, Monday night was a big walk, tuesday was a run and then tennis and last night was another big walk so cant complain there.. tonight ill go for a quick walk before playing netball after dinner so ive got it all planned. hoping to get up tomorrow morning and get my friday walk out of the way. we have bbq at a friends house tomorrow night, so ill choose wisely, a meat portion and salad.. and just going to take a bottle of wine so might have one or two glasses - driving,... saturday night we have chappys xmas party break up at his bosses house - seafood banquet and drinks.. ill have to make some more wise choices and ill still be having a very quiet night. will be walking saturday and sunday for some extra points there too... cant wait till weigh in now.. tracking has been a bit slack this week so i really have to make that a big focus..

I love this blog, i can talk crap and ramble on - rather than dribbling it all to chappy when i get home! Thursday arvo, looking forward to netball tonight, filling in for the oposition (on a saturday!) should be good fun! Thanks for listening, and hope everyone is enjoying their weeks.. christmas is coming WAY too fast!!

Heres a picture to make you smile... zara on the spare bed at home, pillow and all.. someone tell her shes not human.. please..

No change - lucky....

Hi there, no change this mroning when I weighed in, 83 still which is fantastic after the shit I consumed at the weekend.. a block of chocolate in that, chicken snitzel burger and fish and chips, too much bbq and nibbled all day to recover from a very big headache after the wedding.... so staying the same this mornign was fantastic, was so miserable and depressed yesterday so its good to be feeling back to normal today, this week it gives me a clean slate to loose some more for next mondays weigh in! the month is flying, i cant believe how quick the year has gone!! my birthday in a couple of weeks not to mention xmas... thought id attach a couple of pics from the wedding on friday for you to see... before we were so drunk!! I dont think I like these pictures but Ill share them anyway.. everyone else is gorgous, i just feel grose for some strange jenna reason - see above.,. me and chappy - and me alice, meg, bride - ains and nat at the wedding!! talk soon xx

Thank god its Friday... (Thursday!)

We have a wedding tomorrow so its my friday today anyway... bring on the weekend, a warm one here too by the looks, so most will be speant in mums pool, gosh i need some new bathers.. but not for another 3kilos ive said! will be a nice birthday or christmas present!!

Guess what - tomorrow im getting a new hair style, im getting lots of layers and a long sweeping fringe at the front.. im a bit scared but i think it will suit and ill just have to get used to it! ill have to take some photos at the wedding tomorrow and post them next week! I found some shoes today they are very pretty and comfy which is very important.. I tried my dress on again last night and i wasnt as happy, i had just had a big pasta dish and felt frumpy and gross, and my hair was greasy and yuck so i was a bit down, i told myself to get over it and get the dress off before i do any damage... so i took it off and after i did my nails, tan and washed and dried my hair i tried it on later with a better result.. and with my hair done nicely tomorrow i think the dress will be lovely. its black with white pocka dots, so its just getting used to that style if you know what i mean...

This week has been pasta week.. we have had way too much carbs/pasta, monday lunch, monday tea tuesday tea, wed lunch and tea so we are having nothing for a week now.. i think that will affect my weight loss on monday, especially after such good numbers this week too... can only do my best for the rest of the week though, we have the wedding tomorrow so the wine will be lovely and the meals are normally pretty good there, and then we have friends kids on saturday and sunday so ill be tracking my meals for the rest of the week, pasta is my enemy, i always splurge, i started to lose when i went to one serve for the week and then it was like a treat, so i am going to go back to that from now on...

My other big change this week - bread - multigrain... we have been getting way too comfy on white bread and i know there is no points difference but i think this will help alot, not only the nutrition value but also because white bread is way to easy to have too much of it and too frequent where as multigrain bread i will have when i have to and if its all that in the cupboard its all i can have!!

Better get back to it, lots of loose ends to tie up before i leave for the weekend. have a great weekend all, and keep yourselfs accountable and enjoy yourselvse at the same time.. for any of you that read this.. havent had any comments in a while, who knows i could be talking to myself! im a good listener!!

Back to Basics - PAID OFF

Guess what - I lost a whopping 2 kilos this week!! Yes thats right from some treturous 6 weeks before of eating and drinking and not as much exercise, weigh in this morning was very exciting and a bit unbelievable.. 83 exactly!! start weight last week was 85 so look out! that 5kilos by the end of the year and ten by mid feb is looking very nice right now!! I think setting my stats back to zero and starting from scratch, back to basics with tracking and everything really helped./ Needed a boost and by the looks of it its worked! Having a bit of food poisoning last night helped too i think! even though i had had a few naughties over the weekend i was pretty good. Friday night was pizza and cocktails but i stuck to my points then last night we had bbq but i had a chicken steak and lots of salads.. but the mud cake and two udls cans had me worried this morning too. maybe thats what posioned my poor tummy... rang chappy after i weighed in this morning and he goes.. no wonder after how sick you were last night, hes a very very good nurse!

Hugs and kisses go out to kel and leigh and their little baby who was born friday night, everything was fin and we went to see her saturday and she was tiny, screaming and gorgous though.. found out saturday night she might have a hole in her lungs and they have her in ICU, taking one day at a time.. very sad, so my thoughts are there with them today, gosh it puts things in perspective doesnt it...

On a better note, My brother and his now fiance alicia got engaged on wednesday night, we had dinner and drinks for them last night, very excited for them both.

Talk soon xx

What a miserabl wednesday -

Morning, Sorry about the double posting below, my blog was being naughty yesterday!!

So Day 3 and everything is going to plan, back on track and going well, counting and exercising and all planned for the weekend. That horrible time of the month has struck and ive had the worst period pains all morning, feeling a bit blah but keeping up the water and having some fruit for morning tea so im hoping that if i have another couple of nurofens it too will pass!

Raining here today, gosh where is all this rain coming from, the farmers will be dancing!!

Anyway better get back to it, busy at work as usual, not much time to chat, just posting to let you know im doing well! tonight some chops with vegies i might even do a warm soup for entree to warm us up and contend our tummies and the chops are only tiny so we could do with something else.. havent decided what ill have for lunch, maybe a wrap or a toastie.. will see!!

DAY 1 DOWN! DAY 2 GOING WELL

Hi there,

I cant view my blog for some reason but ill keep updating for you all that decide to have a read..

Day one went great, and how great did it feel and what a difference it made to get out and exercise, it was just a walk but it did wonders for how i felt! highly recommend it!! Decided not to join curves, I thought - ive lost this much weight not paying for it why start now.. and I have enough on with walking as well so it probably wasnt going to be worth it! Each to their own though, who knows i might one day, i have been doing my own toning stuff at home anyway so I dont really need to, its easy enough to pay a membership but the membership doesnt help with losing or gaining anything!!

Anyway just a quick post hope it works. Latina fresh pasta with spinach and ricotta for tea tonight with a tomatoe based pasta sause - yummo. Chappy cooked a yummy lean steak with vegies last night, needed some veg, another couple of serves tomorrow night and thursday too, drinking loads of water the last few days too which has been helping! Got my energy back last night and turned into sadie the cleaning lady! chappy couldnt believe it after the day before - not getting my butt off the couch at all!!

Hope your all doing well, Its great up here on the wagon again! come join me if you havent already!!

Take care xx

DAY 1 DOWN! DAY 2 GOING WELL

Hi there,

I cant view my blog for some reason but ill keep updating for you all that decide to have a read..

Day one went great, and how great did it feel and what a difference it made to get out and exercise, it was just a walk but it did wonders for how i felt! highly recommend it!! Decided not to join curves, I thought - ive lost this much weight not paying for it why start now.. and I have enough on with walking as well so it probably wasnt going to be worth it! Each to their own though, who knows i might one day, i have been doing my own toning stuff at home anyway so I dont really need to, its easy enough to pay a membership but the membership doesnt help with losing or gaining anything!!

Anyway just a quick post hope it works. Latina fresh pasta with spinach and ricotta for tea tonight with a tomatoe based pasta sause - yummo. Chappy cooked a yummy lean steak with vegies last night, needed some veg, another couple of serves tomorrow night and thursday too, drinking loads of water the last few days too which has been helping! Got my energy back last night and turned into sadie the cleaning lady! chappy couldnt believe it after the day before - not getting my butt off the couch at all!!

Hope your all doing well, Its great up here on the wagon again! come join me if you havent already!!

Take care xx

TODAYS THE DAY!! WEEK 1 DAY 1

Okay - busy at work so ill make this quick!

Just announcing that im starting from day one today!

START WEIGHT 85 KILOS

GOAL WEIGHT 75 KILOS

Ive set a 3 month challenge to achieve this goal weight and I KNOW I CAN DO IT.
Ill be blogging even more to keep my self accountable, I have been on a six week bender which had no losses and even some gains, (any loss i had was right back on with more the next week!)

I know its a strange time to start - the silly season, but as I said to leesh today - id rather be skinny than silly and if that means making a few sacrafices here and there - im there!!

Have a great day ill blog later or tomorrow, one day at a time, here we go!!

THIS WEEKS MINI GOALS -

Walk/exercise every day this week, I have 14 days to make up for - start slow so i dont overdoo it, asthma has been up since ive been very lazy the last few weeks so want that back on track...

Water water water - 3 litres a day this week, flush the shit out of my system is the plan..

SOCIAL DOO friday night - have a couple of drinks, not over points, healthy food choices, no nibbles!

TRACK EVERYTHING (planned the week last night)

NO CHOCOLATE - thats right, its TTOM this week and it will be a tester, I have some ww chocolate cakes instead - i know i said no chocolate but ive allowed for one or two of them to get me through - instead of a packet of freddos..

I also realise that my body might be too used to what i was doing after losing 22.3 kilos and its time to make some more changes - so ill be remaining aware of that and changing little things at a time i think, so i can maintain them for good!

GO ME!

Hated that before picture

Hated that opening - before picture flashes up.. didnt have the affect i wanted, so heres one of me and the girls from the weekend instead... youll have to go down further for more - gosh im premenstural today arent i!!! mood swings have kicked in full throttel!!

NEED A LIFT

OK after posting some pics before I really needed to post another before and after shot to make myself feel better, ive been really down this week so i think it cant hurt...